Lots has happened since our Christmas miracle. We let the original vial of our original sperm donor slip through our fingers. It was destroyed by Kaiser because we failed to give them an answer as to where we wanted the vial shipped (to another facility). It was a bitter sweet moment, but one that we both knew was right because we are officially done having children. I am sure you are wondering how I feel about our developing news and interestingly enough, I am relieved... sometimes.
I had a lot of issues after ivf. I ended up having a nasty little complex cyst on my ovary that wreaked havoc for many months in my lower region. It was finally removed in February, along with my appendix oh and I had a fun d & c. I also had a bladder treatment done to make sure that everything was okay. Needless to say, from the moment I had the egg retrieval, I have been in pain. Luckily, my pain has subsided except for my periods. They are no fun!
I am ready to move on from having a dna child. I am lucky to be the mom of two beautiful children that I had in my heart. We have such a wonderful relationship and they complete me. Sometimes, I wonder what would have happened or if we could really try again, but then I think about where we are in life. I am already 42. Our children are older and are self sufficient for the most part. My marriage is no longer on the back burner and my wife and I more involved than we used to be. There is still a tiny space in my heart that wishes I could have had a dna child, but as time passes its gets smaller and smaller.
This experience has brought our family closer and I know that my wife feels sorry sometimes that I couldn't have one of our babies, but life happens the way its supposed to, so I guess we will count our blessings and move on.
