I needed some time to think

So our IVF back in October was unsuccessful. It broke my heart like it always does for women in my situation.  Its taken me some time to heal, but everything happens for a reason doesn't it? Yes. I kept asking myself why? And well, we got our answer just a few weeks after our BFN. I was let go from my position at the radio station I was working at for two years. Trust me, I was more upset that I wasn't pregnant .... I enjoy what I do on the radio but I was not happy at work. I am grateful the company honored my contract and honestly I can't say bad things about radio station I worked at... I wish everyone I worked with all the best. Honestly, I left with two gleaming recommendations.

Right now, I don't know what I am going to do. Well, I should include my wife in this shouldn't I? We don't know what we are going to do. Our goal is to stay here in NYC and make a go of it. I am considering a new career path and perhaps want to leave Radio all together because accepting another job in radio would probably mean leaving NYC and up rooting our family. Our children are so settled here and I guess frankly we are too.

My wife and I have one more paid ivf cycle to use with our insurance and we would like to try one more time.  My wife is more apprehensive than I am.  She says she is happy we aren't pregnant right now.  she doesn't say it to be mean. I am after all unemployed. I have to agree with her.

If we do another cycle our RE suggested we go for quality and not quantity. He also suggested we follow a different protocol. Femara for the first five days, then injections like Bravelle for a few days followed by Ganurelix and 2 ovidrel shots. He also suggested that we find a new sperm donor. I have to say I like this protocol. It's cheaper on the pocket book, but whats important is that we get 4 or 5 excellent eggs.

So, I am going to do my best and update on whats happening with the Gamez family. My wife's belly is open for business, its just not the right time for a grand opening. Cheers to hoping 2014 is the year!

xo,
Mick